For We
Once my daddy's little girl
My comfort was knowing
He could protect me from the world
He was my mighty defender
Loving me unconditionally
His faith in me would never surrender
But things they change
And you cant always know
Just who is to blame
I wept when I found out
That because of what they called the "cure"
Left us all with nothing but doubt
The once loving man
Who in my eyes could do no wrong
Became someone who I couldn't stand
Blinded by the pain
Reaching out to all the wrong things
Making the same mistakes over and over again
A lifetime of lessons learned
In only a few years time
Without even knowing, from a girl to a woman I had turned.
Still more mistakes, of the "grownup" kind
Pain of a new sort was given to me
I pulled into myself to keep from losing my mind
God gave me the ability to see
That I had to teach and protect the two precious gifts he had given me
I reached down deep within myself, and into my children's eyes, and found
my courage, the strength to leave
Happy the way I just months before, didn't know how to be
Enjoying my children, and who I was becoming
And every day, I stop and think of the way he used to be
There are things I can't change
Pain I have caused, or has been done to me
But regret breeds insecurities
I have no time for that
I am a mom, my children are mine to teach
So I look back, and remember again
Who in my eyes, he used to be
That is what I focus on
For my children, that is who I will be
A strong and succesful woman
That is what I want
Not for them or I alone, but for "we"
Karen Shepard
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